Most Fridays I go to a morning meeting with child care at a church.  The child care room is on the main floor and the meeting is downstairs.  Today as I pulled into the parking lot I noticed a hearse.  "Oooooooo... funeral." I said softly to myself, hoping to avoid my 2 year old's inevitable: "What's a funeral?"  I field many questions these days from my little man in the back seat.  So we walk together through the doors of the church and to the right of us is a dead body in an open casket.  Ooooooo... viewing. I think.  A lady comes up to me and offers me a program.  "I am actually just here for the meeting downstairs." I say to her and then add "I'm sorry for interrupting the..."and gesture toward the corpse. "Oh, it's ok." she says with a smile.  My son and I quietly and unobstrusively make our way down the hall to the child care room.  I drop him off and say to the babysitter, "So... dead body in the front hall eh?" She raises her eyebrows and nods.  I head down to my meeting, making sure to keep my gaze appropriately downcast as I walk through the gathering mourners.
The meeting goes well, though more subdued than usual.
Afterwards, I go back to collect my son.  I open the baby gate at the door and say hello and the babysitter tells me that O went potty.  "In the toilet?!" I ask.  "Yes." she confirms.  I look down and O is gone.  He is running down the hall toward the front door of the church which I remember is open.  Then, as I am rushing after him with as much dignity as I can, I remember the casket is also open.  Oh Lord.
I have been in this situation before and have not hesitated to yell "Stop that BABY!!"  But I don't think it would be appropriate given the current circumstances.  So I just run, my eyes cast downward, giving respect to the recently departed and his grieving group of family members and friends.  I reach the end of the hall and see the door is open and empty.  Then I catch a flash of O's yellow fireman raincoat as he flees through another door into the offices of the church.  I race after him... quietly.  He's down the hall and into another room: the private office of the pastor who is removing his formal vestments.  He turns and I say, "Sorry... little kid..." as I grab O and retreat.  "It's ok." the pastor replies with a smile.  I am walking back down the hall and I see a picture of Jesus.   And he's looking right at me.  Beseechingly.  "At a funeral?" he seems to be asking. "Really?"  I don't know how to respond.  I just give him a bewildered shrug and guide my little monster back out to our car.

 
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